Originating Change Within Me

 Recently, I made a list of ways that I have changed within the last ten years. I compared the things I wrote about and thought about in my journal as a 14-15 year to what I've been writing and thinking about as a 24 (almost 25-year-old). As a 14-year-old, I would sometimes write about the no silliest things; I was less focused on God. I was very insecure about myself, had a hard time making friends, didn't feel smart. Often, if there wasn't a pop star in concert, I didn't know of any other ways to find joy. I would argue with teen girls on the Jonas Brothers fan club website. 

 At 23, I remember how I created drama with others, offending others and then being easily offended, jumping to many conclusions (that most likely weren't true), forcing things to happen that wasn't God's time for it to happen. I was so angry and frustrated about many things going on in my life. I had felt like a nuisance and began to lose friendships. All along, God just wanted me to take it easy, not to be so hard on myself, and to let go of the stress. The way I was doing things was not going to help me grow in any way. Not only was I hurting myself, but I was hurting others. In light of my difficult journey that year, I learned so much, and I began to foster happy and healthy relationships. I was able to make amends and began a fresh start. 


Now at 24, my thoughts and writing are more profound. Still a bit quirky, but wiser. I am more joyous, even though I've experienced a much more challenging time as an adult than a teen; I learned how to find joy and be content in the more intelligible things in life. To take one day at a time, count my blessings, and to be wiser in the way I communicate with others. I'm learning to be more patient with myself and others; I'm beginning to accept myself and love myself for who I am. 


I definitely believe that God has answered prayers and slowly reveals his great and awesome plan for my life in my season of change. 


“Some changes look negative on the surface, but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.”
― Eckhart Tolle




What am I Creating for the Next Generation?

Thinking back on my childhood, I feel like there's been such a drastic change! From the way we communicate with each other, to learning things, to watching tv. I could say that the way things are today are 10* better. But on the other hand, I don't regret learning the way I did as a kid. Though, today's world makes things learning much more efficient with the use of the latest technology, I feel as a kid I had to work really hard to get good grades or wherever you'd like to call it as a homeschooler.

My point is, though I really do believe a change needed to be made to help better our generation; I also believe that there's more things that need to be changed that hasn't been changed yet or hasn't even been mentioned of change. One of my desires or goals as a writer is to create stories that will bring positivity and inspiration to young readers. Though I want my books to be read by all ages, my target age is 12-19 that age range could be the toughest in our society. There's so many things kids experience and struggle with, Self- Esteem and Body Image, Bullying, Peer Pressure, Sex, etc... 
What I noticed by reading YA books and watching Tween/Teen shows is that these issues are surrounded in these tv programs but in a almost not-so-positive way. A lot of teens are tempted to read it or watch it mainly because all of their friends are talking about it and you don't want to feel left out. For teens, especially as Christians, they don't have a lot of things to help them grow in their faith, especially when I was a teen.

My goal that I want to create for our generation is not to necessarily be preachy, but to promote positive things that we may tend to overlook at times. How often do you read a book about someone following their dreams? You'll find 2 out of the 10 romance books. Love is a great thing to write about, but I'm not so happy about the way today's teen authors or movies producers are making teens feel like they have to have sex to really experience true love. There's a few movies I find myself watching with my sister that were about wholesome love which was a really beautiful thing to see; and no, movies aren't all the blame why some teen girls are getting pregnant before they even graduate High School, but again there's still pressure involved and the fear of missing out when your friends are all coming to see the latest teen romance drama or are reading the latest romance novel. Also, seeing the way true love is presented on screen can make it look like so much fun! Yes, true love is fun i'm sure but true love isn't all about having fun. That's the reason why I always felt left out when I wasn't dating anyone as a teen because it seemed like everyone from in the malls and the movie theaters were having so much fun! But I don't believe just having fun with someone will make you want to marry them one day.

With all that being said, I wholeheartedly believe that God has called me to write stories to make a change. To remind young people that their bodies is a temple of the Holy Spirit, 1 Corinthians 6: 18-20 explains it better: "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have receieved from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies."

We all have struggles, at any age. But being a teen it seems like you face some of the biggest struggles. But entertainment can actually have a big part of our lives and our behavior. Imagine if there more thousands more books and movies about a kid pursuing in their dreams as a doctor, teacher, firefighter, etc... I bet it would spark a lot more hope in today's teens hearts. I know I cannot do this alone, but I want to use whatever I have to help that dream of mine become a reality. Teenagers growing into influential people, leaders, teachers. Teenagers sharing the good news of Christ, teenagers saving themselves for marriage, teenagers refusing to indulge in the drugs or cigarettes that may be offered to them. Teenagers relaying a new message to the world.

As a still somewhat young person, I wanted to take a moment to step into a teenager's shoes. I was nowhere near perfect as a teen, but I also went through many sad stages of feeling left out, and unaccepted, and insecurity issues. I was a different teenager I felt, I didn't really go to any parties or have lots of friends and wasn't into the latest trends. But looking back now, I believe that's ok. It's ok to be different and have different opinions. I want my stories to be different. To stand out and create a new category for teen readers (and adult readers as well).

A lot of us have become so accustomed to the "norm" it's time we take a stand to better teens of today and to reward them with something new and refreshing. Any little thing helps. Our teenagers should begin to feel more confident about themselves and their future.

What am I creating for the next generation? Positve. Inspiration. Joy. Purity. Love. Faith. That's what i'm creating, what are you creating?

Kam💗

Then and Now (Goals I've Accomplished Last Year and Goals for 2020)

It's been forever and a day since I've posted something (at least that's the way it seems). I will say that I go through periods of my life where I'm not sure of myself and that includes myself as a writer. There's numerous things that hinder me from blogging and writing in general; simply no ambition or motivation to write, lack of confidence, life issues, and honestly just unable to come up with good things to write about. One thing I've noticed about anything that I write is that I have a hard time staying on topic. That's one of my greatest weaknesses as a writer. With this being my first blog post of 2020, it's really nerve wrecking, however, I am going to proceed on and focus on the art more so than the technicality of it all, even though, I definitely want my work to look clean and proper, but I'm not going to let that spoil the great enjoyment that I find in writing. Look at me, I'm already procrastinating...

In this post, I wanted to discuss some goals that I've accomplished in 2019.

Permit (One step ahead to my driving goals) - Yes, i'm a latecomer but I am one step ahead now. I was able to finally get my permit and managed to have a pretty decent picture despite the nerves that I was combating that day! I truly believe that 2020 will be the year when I'm finally able to drive, I can't wait until that day.

Started Volunteering at the Library - Starting a volunteer job was a goal of mine for one, I needed another type of activity to keep me occupied other than work and I believed it was a good way to get my foot in the door to help me get a job at the library. I have already learned so much by being a volunteer at the library and I'm looking forward to what I will learn this year. I also feel that the library is a good fit for me because I love reading books and of course I would like to write and publish some books of my own.

Developed in My Social Skills - Though I'm still pretty shy at the start, I definitely believed i've grown in 2019 as far as social skills go. I felt more comfortable talking to both customers at my workplace and coworkers. As I expressed a more confident me and happier me, I began to notice more people attracted to me. If I don't believe i have anything good going for me what makes me think people would believe that i have anything good going for me either? I've read in a few articles how smiling is attractive, and not just for guys to notice but smiling is really a good thing generally. I wanted all people to notice that I have a cheerful side.

I Got Outdoors More - This past summer I felt like I was more motivated to walk, go to the park or just sit on the bench outside. I wanted to make an effort to try to do something outside daily if I could. I did go on a few walks, I sometimes just sat and pondered on some of God's beautiful creations such as the sky, the river and the flowers. Not only did it relax me and allow me to enjoy fresh air, but it also helped me feel a bit more independent. In 2019, it had seemed like it was the year when I really didn't have much freedom and my parents had seemed like they were really strict. I was sad about that quite a bit, that's what motivated me to go outside more and by doing so, I felt a sense of peace.

General Things I Did and/or Learned - I feel like I got closer to God and that my faith had endured. After the passing of my grandmother, uncle and great aunt, all dying pretty close together; it made me begin to make the most of life. Though I'm still learning how to do that, watching a lot of my family members leave this world has definitely been an eye opener for me. I also feel like I gained knowledge in some areas as far as, writing, computer skills, and business. There's things that I've learned how to do like managing my money better, cooking and things to eat and do to keep my body healthy (again, eating healthy is still something I'm struggling with. A girl has to have her Mcdonald's).

Some of the highlights of 2019 would be Passion and the Cross production at my church, that's always been an exciting time for me every year! I can even remember some fun times at work that I had with my coworkers and making new friends at work was also a highlight of 2019, Trunk or Treat, Shawn Mendes concert and Casting Crowns, Hillsong Worship and Elevation worship concert was some really amazing moments of 2019.

Now... onto 2020. I have some pretty big goals for 2020 and some things that I'm praying for.

Get a Car - This is something I'm really hoping for because it's been so hard to make plans and commitments with no transportation of your own. Not only having my own car more convenient but, I would be a lot more independent. Having my own car would be a huge life changer for me and my siblings. I believe it's the time and I know that God can do it.

Get Involved with the Young Adults Ministry at My Church - I grew in my friendships in 2019 but not as much as I could've. So I would to be able to grow both in God and in my relationships.

Travel - It's always nice to explore other parts of the world.

Get a Better Job - Preferably library or school.

Take Courses in Creative Writing - Because I'm always willing to learn all there is to know about writing.

Have a Big Birthday Party - Especially considering I'll be 25 this year!

Have a Fun Day Out With Friends - Because I'm really due for one

Form My Own Writing Group - It seems to be a really cool and fun thing to do. Hear stories and get inspiration from fellow writers and just to be able to learn about each other as well.

Be More Independent - Being able to do things for yourself is such a great privilege.

Grow in My Relationship with God - Generally taking more time to prayer and read the Bible everyday before any other thing I do.

Grow My Blog - I believe this blog has great potential and I'm willing to continue to keep working hard on it to make it better and better.

Write Daily - Whether it's a few sentences in my journal, blog or social media I believe that there's great growth for any aspiring writer to write something everyday and even great therapy for me as well.


Every year and everyday, my aim is to always find ways to improve myself. I want to love more, forgive more and be more patient. I want to believe in myself and feel good about myself. I want to trust God wholeheartedly and give my all to Him. I want to be a better Christian, a better daughter, a better sister and a better friend. I know that God is shaping my life and he's going to work through in unimaginable ways. I ready for growth and renewal in this new season.

Please fee free to give your feedback on any of my posts. Also, don't forget to follow all of my socal media pages for updates! Instagram @prissypatrice24 Twitter @Turbotyper16 and Facebook @trissywal. I'd also like to hear what your new year's plans are and what you have already accomplished in the new year. I Look forward to the next time I wil blog with you guys,

Until next time...

Be Brave. Love Always. Never Stop Dreaming

-Kammy💖



Originating Change Within Me

 Recently, I made a list of ways that I have changed within the last ten years. I compared the things I wrote about and thought about in my ...